101th post. unhappy

firstly, i saw quite a number of ppl today. when waiting for the bus, i saw marvin. wah damn long nvr see him already. become more handsome. sian. lol. den talk abit, he say he going RGS to perform. den board bus, den saw act cute rachel... den going home that time saw jackson on his way to TnF den when reach amk saw yiling running after bus with joey. i think enough ppl liao right.. did i miss anyone?

im fucking sian. ok. maybe today i see her, den not so emo. but i still feel sian. keep got the sickening SIAN feeling. SIAN because the EC proj no matter what, got problem cock up and never finish. SIAN because PSYCRE still got project. SIAN because exams are coming soon. SIAN because i still dont know how to chase after her. SIAN even though i watch anime/apprentice or play winning eleven. play whatever.

even my one source of solace, music, isnt helping. i keep playing the songs that i like. and it's not helping. sometimes it even gets on my nerve. even in sch, when im doing happy stuff. im not happy. wah sian. is this puberty? it shld have hit long ago right..... or pms? da yi ma come visit me =(

today i asked her a qn on msn. i said,

"can i ask you a qn? you just ans yes or no. cannot answer anything else and cannot ask qn."
den i ask her "is chasing a girl very hard?"
den she was like " er.. yes. no... no.. yes.. depends"
den i force her to choose one, den she chose "yes"

actually, i also duno what's my motive. maybe i wanted her to be curious. to let her know a LITTLE bit den dun say, let her xin yang yang. i dont know whether it'll backfire or not, but it's already done.

im just unhappy ~>.<~