Family trouble
really hate to blog such a fucked up entry
my mum's been working in singtel for 31 years. and got retrenched somewhere ard my birthday. it's been almost 7 mths since, and things arent going so well. my mum's been hunting for jobs for a long time and since she's over 50, its been tough finding a job even if she has an O lvls cert. so everyday she harass me when she's at home and i found that really annoying, although i try to control myself. den she went for ntuc courses and alot of fucked up things, finally ending up at ntuc fairprice. and everyday she comes home complaining abt her job, but it's all understandable since ive been there and done that. ntuc that is.
my dad's driving taxi again after being released from suspension, which is quite a bit of relief. although sometimes he has mood swings over the most insignificant thing and makes the entire family unhappy, including my mum. he already has high blood and is maintaining it. and lo and behold, now my mum has it too, and it's quite high.
my sis's being a lil bitch. she hopped from financial adviser to smth else and now market research analyst. half of the mth she spends with her bf at his place, which was fine to me since i have the rm to myself without anyone bothering me. but it bothers my mum.
today. my sis was to stay over at her bf's place and smsed my mum telling her she wont be coming home. den my mum, worried abt family finance, smsed her "eh when can you start contributing to the family again?"
ok. the sentence itself didnt seem very friendly. it didnt sound right! ok, frankly speaking to me, it's abit offensive. but to my sister, it's like she just got a slap in the face, so she retaliated the sms by saying these things arent supposed to be said through the sms. and scolded my mum for having bad etiquette. yes, you didnt see wrongly. daughter tell mum that. which mum wouldnt be angry?
my mum's blood began to boil, bringing up the pressure. anyway, she got pissed and retaliated also, and my sis did the same AGAIN. my mum bth and come show me the msg, den halfway cursing, she started to cry. den i was wondering, wah really so jialat meh. den my mum go take her bp, it was like 180, fucking high. den i bth liao, i go send my sister an essay long sms telling her nicely. and then she called me, and then talk to her. thankfully she wasnt yelling, if she was, i think i also yell back at her liao.
anyway. me being the fucking middleman, i got to calm my mum right, like duh. she was still sobbing den i laid out ALL the facts that happened. then my mum talked to me, feeling very hurt. then i listen already i also cannot take it and cried. my mum, feel very insecure because she working at singtel more than half her life and she got dumped out into society, but she's not making it any easier on everyone else by complaining! that makes us more reluctant to support her isnt it!
but i feel very very sad. fucken emo right now. cuz suddenly i thought of what i did to contribute to the household. sure i do housework from time to time. and i try and talk to my parents and try not to get angry even though im very annoyed by everything else on earth. den i think of my spendings, and my studies. and my future. what can i offer back to these 2 folks that brought me up?
i have nearly 1.25 years left in poly, to get a diploma. to serve NS for 2 years. which would be good cuz i'll never be home and thus no expenses. and then work with shitty pay and shitty job doing something that will get u bored within the first 30mins. and if i were lucky enough to enter the university, den what, incur costs of $20-30k? and spend another 3 years studying? which only allows me to work in 6.25 years+.
and then remain a bachelor till i earn enough to support my parents for life.
girls can go to hell then
i thank god for the invention of music because that's the only thing calming me down by making my hearing impaired.
my mum's been working in singtel for 31 years. and got retrenched somewhere ard my birthday. it's been almost 7 mths since, and things arent going so well. my mum's been hunting for jobs for a long time and since she's over 50, its been tough finding a job even if she has an O lvls cert. so everyday she harass me when she's at home and i found that really annoying, although i try to control myself. den she went for ntuc courses and alot of fucked up things, finally ending up at ntuc fairprice. and everyday she comes home complaining abt her job, but it's all understandable since ive been there and done that. ntuc that is.
my dad's driving taxi again after being released from suspension, which is quite a bit of relief. although sometimes he has mood swings over the most insignificant thing and makes the entire family unhappy, including my mum. he already has high blood and is maintaining it. and lo and behold, now my mum has it too, and it's quite high.
my sis's being a lil bitch. she hopped from financial adviser to smth else and now market research analyst. half of the mth she spends with her bf at his place, which was fine to me since i have the rm to myself without anyone bothering me. but it bothers my mum.
today. my sis was to stay over at her bf's place and smsed my mum telling her she wont be coming home. den my mum, worried abt family finance, smsed her "eh when can you start contributing to the family again?"
ok. the sentence itself didnt seem very friendly. it didnt sound right! ok, frankly speaking to me, it's abit offensive. but to my sister, it's like she just got a slap in the face, so she retaliated the sms by saying these things arent supposed to be said through the sms. and scolded my mum for having bad etiquette. yes, you didnt see wrongly. daughter tell mum that. which mum wouldnt be angry?
my mum's blood began to boil, bringing up the pressure. anyway, she got pissed and retaliated also, and my sis did the same AGAIN. my mum bth and come show me the msg, den halfway cursing, she started to cry. den i was wondering, wah really so jialat meh. den my mum go take her bp, it was like 180, fucking high. den i bth liao, i go send my sister an essay long sms telling her nicely. and then she called me, and then talk to her. thankfully she wasnt yelling, if she was, i think i also yell back at her liao.
anyway. me being the fucking middleman, i got to calm my mum right, like duh. she was still sobbing den i laid out ALL the facts that happened. then my mum talked to me, feeling very hurt. then i listen already i also cannot take it and cried. my mum, feel very insecure because she working at singtel more than half her life and she got dumped out into society, but she's not making it any easier on everyone else by complaining! that makes us more reluctant to support her isnt it!
but i feel very very sad. fucken emo right now. cuz suddenly i thought of what i did to contribute to the household. sure i do housework from time to time. and i try and talk to my parents and try not to get angry even though im very annoyed by everything else on earth. den i think of my spendings, and my studies. and my future. what can i offer back to these 2 folks that brought me up?
i have nearly 1.25 years left in poly, to get a diploma. to serve NS for 2 years. which would be good cuz i'll never be home and thus no expenses. and then work with shitty pay and shitty job doing something that will get u bored within the first 30mins. and if i were lucky enough to enter the university, den what, incur costs of $20-30k? and spend another 3 years studying? which only allows me to work in 6.25 years+.
and then remain a bachelor till i earn enough to support my parents for life.
girls can go to hell then
i thank god for the invention of music because that's the only thing calming me down by making my hearing impaired.
scribbled by xlambda @ 11:03 PM
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