An emo post dedicated solely to you
On the way home, i got swept over by a whirlwind of emotions again. been thinking too much. about us. i was thinking of the time when you asked me so what should you do? the truth is, i have lots to say. but you are not a robot so i cant give you orders, im just not ok with it. what you should do is to really think what you can do to make it so we can avoid this problem eventually.
cuz the way i see it, it's always with me being moody over smth, and thus causing you to be hurt, and then i'll be worried sick and care for you. but then this vicious cycle keeps carrying on, and i dont want either of us to continue playing this cycle. it just isnt smart
like for instance. sometimes me seeing you being happy with another person gets me a little jumpy. especially when im right there and you're still doing it. im aware of such things and i try not to voice it out, but it eats me inside.... ALOT. and then i'll start going onto my grumpy mode and leaving you out
and how you seldom notice me =( it hurts. and when u know smth's wrong. and i tell u nothing's wrong with my incredibly annoyed face. you thought you shld leave me alone to calm down. but it just makes me feel you dont care =((
i know we had our long talk just now. but i just cant help but worry. afterall, we're only at the beginning. and i want to let you know that because of you, i've commited even though i was afraid to do so. and im also hoping you'll appreciate the things i do for you a lil bit more. you ask me how again? i dont wanna tell you what to do. i just hope u'd acknowledge it somehow. cuz i'll do the same for you too.
so even though it might be easy to just take the easy way out, im not having that as an option and i hope we can pull through it together. you know how much you mean to me.
i think a night's rest will do me good. esp after having gastric after dinner. im thankful the fatigue is getting to me, so i wont spend too much time thinking about today.
and oh. if i read this post without knowing who wrote it. i swear i'd think it's a girl. i think i have too much female hormones in me *shock*
cuz the way i see it, it's always with me being moody over smth, and thus causing you to be hurt, and then i'll be worried sick and care for you. but then this vicious cycle keeps carrying on, and i dont want either of us to continue playing this cycle. it just isnt smart
like for instance. sometimes me seeing you being happy with another person gets me a little jumpy. especially when im right there and you're still doing it. im aware of such things and i try not to voice it out, but it eats me inside.... ALOT. and then i'll start going onto my grumpy mode and leaving you out
and how you seldom notice me =( it hurts. and when u know smth's wrong. and i tell u nothing's wrong with my incredibly annoyed face. you thought you shld leave me alone to calm down. but it just makes me feel you dont care =((
i know we had our long talk just now. but i just cant help but worry. afterall, we're only at the beginning. and i want to let you know that because of you, i've commited even though i was afraid to do so. and im also hoping you'll appreciate the things i do for you a lil bit more. you ask me how again? i dont wanna tell you what to do. i just hope u'd acknowledge it somehow. cuz i'll do the same for you too.
so even though it might be easy to just take the easy way out, im not having that as an option and i hope we can pull through it together. you know how much you mean to me.
i think a night's rest will do me good. esp after having gastric after dinner. im thankful the fatigue is getting to me, so i wont spend too much time thinking about today.
and oh. if i read this post without knowing who wrote it. i swear i'd think it's a girl. i think i have too much female hormones in me *shock*
scribbled by xlambda @ 11:14 PM
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