Update on my life
Exams are over for me since yesterday. perhaps i'm never having exams ever again for i might be entering a university. hooray! but then again, 5 mths attachment is happening in just a week+ time. oh thats so sad for me
goodness of today: spent it with yiquan and cw. best buds. miss them both. suddenly reminisce the days of yesterday during our outing today. was a day well spent. bringing back painful and wonderful memories of the past. the days when we were trios. so we spent the day mostly hanging ard, talking and perhaps trying to think of a business strategy. who knows? maybe we'll make it big some day.
well.. just maybe
thank you both for today. it was enjoyable. i rmb how much it means to have friends around me since i havent had any/much for awhile now. i hope we can meet up from time to time to catch up, on old days, and the future =)
Books to enjoy:
The Notebook - 3/5 stars for me. boring start, wonderful ending. brought me to tears it did. might give it a shot if you're into love/romance and the touching moments in a relationship. good for people attached because it brings so much emotion in you
A Walk To Remember - 2/5. A fun read. was expecting to tear, especially since reading The Notebook. Apparently, this book brought more fun to me than it did for sorrow. Good read, though it's really light.
Decisions:
I've given you a choice. You will make a decision. I can only hope that you will give the answer that I'm looking forward to, but I'm not pressuring you to. You have to make YOUR decision based on your feelings. Nobody elses. Your decision will bring the future to us, be it closer or further apart because if we do not pass this hurdle, then nothing will.
It was painful saying the things I did. I did not say it out of the whim. I've thought about things, deep and hard. I did not say it on impulse. But you've hurt me, deeply, more than you think you know. And I know I've hurt you, how much, I'll never know... but you do.
This will be a major turning point in our relationship, hopefully for the better. I cannot leave you to think and act the way you do, because it is not fair towards me. You might think I'm forcing you to do this, to make this decision, and that is not fair. But from how I see things, if you do not make a decision, nothing will be fair.
I do not want to make you do this. No. I do not. Especially during this period. I never would have said it if I did not feel so strongly about it. I know I may be arrogant when I say this, but for that day... You cannot think that you are right. There are many many many times, whenever we have issues. It is not because you are the cause of the problem, but the thing is how you handle it. Why do you act the way you do? There are reasons why I feel upset, and so do you. I have to coax you when you are upset, so why don't you try to do the same for me?
Think in my shoes. Empathise. I try to think for you. You say you think for me, but how much? Sometimes I can't help but confide my situation to others and they agree that I have every right to be moody. And when I am moody, it only hurts to feel that I'm not being understood and that you are even angry at me at times. You also know how that feels.
I do not want to start blaming, for both of us have our own faults. We aren't perfect and that is a fact. But show it to me, how much you're willing to do for me. I want to see it. And I don't know if you really do see how much I'm doing for you, but I am, and I'm still trying.
Like I told you, I believe in you, in myself, that we can still make it work. If I had really thrown in the towel, I would not have behaved the way I did, and will not even want to care whatever happens to US. But I still do, and that means something. I've made my decision. I'm just waiting for yours now. Do make the right one.
Until Friday, I will have faith and will continue praying. Whichever decision you make, I will trust that you've thought about it thoroughly. I do NOT want you to start regretting after you've made your decision. So be wise, make the right choice.
I'll be waiting...
goodness of today: spent it with yiquan and cw. best buds. miss them both. suddenly reminisce the days of yesterday during our outing today. was a day well spent. bringing back painful and wonderful memories of the past. the days when we were trios. so we spent the day mostly hanging ard, talking and perhaps trying to think of a business strategy. who knows? maybe we'll make it big some day.
well.. just maybe
thank you both for today. it was enjoyable. i rmb how much it means to have friends around me since i havent had any/much for awhile now. i hope we can meet up from time to time to catch up, on old days, and the future =)
Books to enjoy:
The Notebook - 3/5 stars for me. boring start, wonderful ending. brought me to tears it did. might give it a shot if you're into love/romance and the touching moments in a relationship. good for people attached because it brings so much emotion in you
A Walk To Remember - 2/5. A fun read. was expecting to tear, especially since reading The Notebook. Apparently, this book brought more fun to me than it did for sorrow. Good read, though it's really light.
Decisions:
I've given you a choice. You will make a decision. I can only hope that you will give the answer that I'm looking forward to, but I'm not pressuring you to. You have to make YOUR decision based on your feelings. Nobody elses. Your decision will bring the future to us, be it closer or further apart because if we do not pass this hurdle, then nothing will.
It was painful saying the things I did. I did not say it out of the whim. I've thought about things, deep and hard. I did not say it on impulse. But you've hurt me, deeply, more than you think you know. And I know I've hurt you, how much, I'll never know... but you do.
This will be a major turning point in our relationship, hopefully for the better. I cannot leave you to think and act the way you do, because it is not fair towards me. You might think I'm forcing you to do this, to make this decision, and that is not fair. But from how I see things, if you do not make a decision, nothing will be fair.
I do not want to make you do this. No. I do not. Especially during this period. I never would have said it if I did not feel so strongly about it. I know I may be arrogant when I say this, but for that day... You cannot think that you are right. There are many many many times, whenever we have issues. It is not because you are the cause of the problem, but the thing is how you handle it. Why do you act the way you do? There are reasons why I feel upset, and so do you. I have to coax you when you are upset, so why don't you try to do the same for me?
Think in my shoes. Empathise. I try to think for you. You say you think for me, but how much? Sometimes I can't help but confide my situation to others and they agree that I have every right to be moody. And when I am moody, it only hurts to feel that I'm not being understood and that you are even angry at me at times. You also know how that feels.
I do not want to start blaming, for both of us have our own faults. We aren't perfect and that is a fact. But show it to me, how much you're willing to do for me. I want to see it. And I don't know if you really do see how much I'm doing for you, but I am, and I'm still trying.
Like I told you, I believe in you, in myself, that we can still make it work. If I had really thrown in the towel, I would not have behaved the way I did, and will not even want to care whatever happens to US. But I still do, and that means something. I've made my decision. I'm just waiting for yours now. Do make the right one.
Until Friday, I will have faith and will continue praying. Whichever decision you make, I will trust that you've thought about it thoroughly. I do NOT want you to start regretting after you've made your decision. So be wise, make the right choice.
I'll be waiting...
scribbled by xlambda @ 10:56 PM
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