friends told me im crazy
to be heading out when i'm sick
i'm taking 8 tablets every 6 hours

4 antibiotics, 1 fever, 1 fever + flu, 2 phelgm

yet i tell them it's ok. because i wanted to keep my promise
and for that, i've been staying home for the past 2 days to recuperate
i wanted to give her my support
when else could i possibly have so much time to spare?
in 5 weeks time, i'll be on a "2 year attachment" with the SPF

if you hear someone wheezing, it would probably be me
i feel my lungs dying
i feel so breathless, always short on breath
i cant breathe through my nose because they're both blocked
i heave with each breath/step i take
but does she know?
i'll never know
because she doesnt ask

despite doing all tt i can for her
it just seems like i shouldn't have done anything at all
i cant help it if i have less energy today, i'm sick afterall
but surely you knew my sweet intentions, and im sure you do
yet for some strange reason you keep wanting to make me "happy"
which i don't understand. i'm not unhappy at all. im merely unwell.
that being said... would you believe me?

we hardly had a really gd time with one another for the past mth.
it's been intermittent
1:4
happy:sad

im so sick
literally + figuratively
must you lose me before you truly treasure me?
what if one day i just pass away just like tt?
i've been feeling so sick recently that i fear that i'll stop breathing at night

just 5 more weeks
it just seems like i cant even make any good memories in this short amt of time
or maybe it wld be better off without any memories at all