Pre Birthday Celebration

If you think this is a happy post, please change url now, or better yet close it before u get to read anymore of this crap

i have got alot of things to say. sometimes its not very convenient and sometimes i cant portray whatever feeling and thoughts i have to say. but nonetheless

I'm Sorry

it's been me recently. always me me me. no one else. dont know whats happening but i hate it. fucking hate it. chuanwei tells me its normal.. well everybody tells me its normal. but how normal isit for us?

we only managed 1 day

1 day! how pathetic is that? this is a rheotorical question which does not need replying to.

i just dont know anymore. there are so many thoughts going in my head but im afraid to say it, because im afraid that i would regret it eventually. and here i am, stuck, living in this god damned pithole satan dug for me

fuck this. i always fuck it up dont i?

always the bad luck bringer to the innocent

i went to suntec to meet my family and my eyes started to feel wet. i missed the time we were there. i kept forcing myself to smile before i met my family because i din wanna let them down. i smiled so much, so hard that my cheeks went numb. but that's all good, for i could still feel numbness

we went to eat at ichiban boshi and i took the salmon sashimi straight away. i feel so miserable each time we have these mini whatever-you-call-it issues we have. better yet, tristan has diahorrea and my dad, for some reason, wanted to call a cab when we havent even foot the bill yet, which resulted in a father-daughter squabble

i just dont know what to do anymore. and not doing anything could only lead to one fate

and i dont want that to happen

but i really dont know. although it's not my birthday yet, i made a wish just now

i wish that my luck can just come back to me. PLEASE! im begging you. give me my luck back!

give me back my life... whatever is left of it





what an emo post. being 19 soon doesnt change a thing at all

like what i said. fuck it. fuck it all